dapat magsusulat ako ngayon e..

tinamad lang ako.. huhu.. i'm too sad and too tired to write something... ayun. hay. anyway.. ummm.. alam ko naman yung basics ng pasko, kaso, merong mga bagay tlaga na makakapagpalungkot sa'yo. katulad ng.. uhmm.. wag nalang. oh well... oo, unfair ang buhay. hindi mo makukuha anglahat ng gusto mo. at life goes on. ika nga. pero yun nga. ang akin naman, "let it bleed and it will heal eventually..."

huhu.

maligaya sana ang pasko nyo. :)

buck teeth sez: "whut?"

i want to know you more
you may no know who its for
like the strands of your hair
dancing on the breeze of the air

what's on your mind?
oh please to me, be so kind.
i hope you'd see and find,
open your ayes, don't be blind

your actions are a mime
seems like we don't rhyme
how come it seems like a crime?
me wishing that you'd be mine.

longing for your smile
seen as far as a mile
i'm willing to walk in style
hoping this will be worthwhile.

im always the last to say
allow me to talk to you if you may
don't let the skies turn gray
fresh like the morning wind on the bay...

sigh.

hoy, tiklado.

whoever you are, this is for you.
i don't know what goes on in your mind.
i may not be the one that you'd say that's perfect.
i'm mister invisible, to you. i know that.

broken mirrors and shattered dreams
floating through time and space..
minds meet, worlds collide, hearts beat.
is there really a "one in a million" chance?

will i just continue to sigh?
will i just keep on dreaming?
a sun shining… a hole in the sky
just till these clouds fade away…

if only you'd know. if only…
i'm like: "hey, i'm here"
and you were like: "what?"
and i just stop. i just keep it to myself.

i see you from afar,
pretending not to notice you.
if only you'd know… and i'd like you to know,
this is for you… whoever you are.




**it' feels like 2006 again… hahaha. sometimes i just let these emotions out. i dunno if someone's gonna read it, aside from the spam bots that's pestering my account. uhmmmm. please be my christmas gift. kung alam mo lang, minsan lang nag katulad mo na dumating… sana'y mapansin mo… sigh. :( oh well..

bato bato sa langit... sana pagtagpuin nyo kami. :D HAHA.

this time we almost sang our song in tune, didnt we?....
didnt we... almost make it this time...?

teka, teka.. meron nga bang "we"? tanga.. asa pa ko. huhuhu.. anyway, isa nanaman ito sa mga kalokohan ko dahil malamig ang gabi at feeling ko nag-iisa nanaman ako. huhu. grabe, meron nga ba talagang "we"?

lungkot nga naman. basta, yun na yun. kinausap nako nung isa kong kaibigan kagabi. sabi nya layuan ko na daw... muna. or something like that. at ako, syempre, oo naman ako. xa magaling eh. pati, respetado kasi yung kaibigan kong yun.. tsaka, tama naman na din. ewan ko ba. hindi lang talaga ako marunong manuyo kasi eh. tsaka makulit ako... sana lang. sana... hindi ganun kahirap suyuin kasi sya eh. hindi mo talaga alam kung anong nasa isip nya.. malalaman mo nalang bigla tas maguguglat ka nalang, or hindi mo na talag malalaman at all. :( para kasi siyang isang universe na maraming nangyayari sa utak nya at sa buhay nya. overflowing with talents and all... tapos yun pa... meron ding sariling mundo. huhu. sana nga yung mundo nya at mundo ko, magkatagpo... hay.

mahirap pala rin talaga kung yung kaparehas mo, magugustuhan mo eh. well mostly kaparehas. basta, lahat ng ayaw mong gawin sa'yo, gagawin... kasi alam nya kung anong ayaw mo, in a way. mainggit karin kung mas magaling xa sayo, magkokompetensya pa kayo... at malamang sa malamang, mag-papatayan din kayo... helo Mr. and Mrs. Smith?

tulala lang ako ngayon. magsusulat dapat ako ng tula, kaso parang lumipas na eh, tinablan nako ng antok. entertainment muna ang hahanapin ko ngayon.. ahihi.

basta, kung meron mang nanunuyo sa inyo, mga babae... pagbigyan nyo. magpasuyo kayo maski minsan. mga lalake naman, uhhh.. uhhhh.. wag kayo mang 2time. ingatan nyo yang mga babae... minamahal yang mga yan... pinag-hirapan nyo naman din eh. :D


jejeje. jejemon nalang pow.

goodnyght...... to the sun... goodnight.. (nalaglag na ang puso ko.)

nagpagupit ng buhok...

it's been a while ever since i last saw a beautician... haha. i dont usually go to barber shops/parlors/whatev.. i just cut my own hair ever since m brother gave me a very beautiful hair clipper. ive been using it since 2007 because people think that i look cool if i am bald. haha.

but i decided to give those beauticians a chance by going to a parlor. it was november 2009 when i first saw one since 2007. it was horrible. hahaha. i hated my hair and all. but this year, exactly a year after, i decided to give it a shot again. but this time, it's in a different parlor as from a reco from my wonderful tita. hahaha (yeah, sa bading ako nagpapagupit, okay? haha) anywho, yeah, i had a nice time, although i was quite uneasy because i think i'm not used to having my hair cut by someone else, and somebody put a razor on my skin. haha. it seems like those times when i go to a barber shop when i was younger. its something to do with the ambience of people smiling when they see that they look better, or just the sound of the scissors cutting the hair, or the smell of burning hair. hahaha. i didnt feel that there's a need before to have you hair styled or something, but yeah, i think the term "one's crowning glory" is really evident. haha

vain as it may sound, i tried to have my hair styled just to do an experiment. haha. im just curious if it'll make a difference or what. and as it turned out, yeah, it did make a difference. hahaha. well, apparently, i walked around to the places where people know me and most of them notice that change. meron ding mga bwiset na hindi namansin. :-( hahaha. kidding, guys.. well, i think there's really this thing about hair or something. i'm just happy that this endeavor with a good beautician made me feel good this past few days. haha. pero masaya lang..

i'm going to buy christmas gifts na, oh, and yeah, christmas lists everywhere. waaah. i dunno what to buy them and all. hala. :( anyway, yeah, i just have to make a list, and check it twice... even though theyre naughty or nice. hahaha.

and yeah, i'm still bipolar. ata. :(:

have a nice day guys.

mga namimiss kong mga kanta.

i've been a music fanatic all my life... i listen to music of different sorts.. as in, from classical to heavy metal to "basagan jazz". well, its like eating. some foods i like, some not. hahaha. i really love Lito Camo. :))))))

lately i've been into "relak lang" sounds, the "acoustic" music, in particular. just to clear my ears from all of the wax built up from listening to rock regularly these past few months. haha. and yea, just to clear my mind, too. hahaha. i remember my US 2005 trip, listening to MYMP while driving from north calif. to south. hehe, emo moments. basta, maganda yung gabi kasi dun. and it was a full moon, to which reminds me of a scene from "a lot like love (2005)" where they hug each other under the moon.. ehehehe.

sooooo cool. :)

anywho, i'm listening to "Ang Tangi Kong Pagibig" by Noel Cabangon..

such a simple song, simple melody, simple lyrics, and all. makes me feel relaxed.

and im going back to barbie's cradle, mymp, jack johnson, john mayer, mraz, and those good acoustic music artists... haaay. such simple music.

Manong ᜋᜈᜓᜅ ᜔ Joseph prolly i'll go to sleep thinkin bout the times when i used to ride WRX-660 from FCS to marikina every afternoon and listen to BC or Imago... sunsets along imelda ave. to marcos hway makes me smile.. ^_^ hahaha.
November 3 at 1:47am

probably, the simplest things strike the warmest parts in the heart. i dunno.. hehe

have a happy weekend, guys. :)

makati ang lalamunan, at málát. X(

haaay, went to the office with my voice that sound like a cat scratching on blackboard. kainis lang, i fell asleep at 5am kanina coughing. seems like i had something on my throat that keeps me from breathing.thanks to pei pa koa, i'm feeling better. dami trabaho. whoo. hehe~ ayun.

watched a clip from the movie Mr. and Mrs Smith. i watched the part where they were doing the tango. they went to this place where they had their first date before. (i think) and that was the place where they kinda "renewed" their relationship... but now, not as "fake lovers" but as enemies. hahaha. wala lang.

why is it that i like these weird movies that couples are trying to kill each other? hahaha.. in fairness to the film's ending, it did end happily. hehehe.


hahaha, well, i wanted to write a book, actually, or just to create a story about something to which i can never seem to describe. haha. basta, indescribable kasi eh. bakit kaya? seems like probably that's too unique to put into writing.

a mixture of sorts, a combination of all, a difference of some, a likeliness of none.
UNIQUE nga eh! kulet... forgive me for my psycho babbling. i just want to write something, or at least to start something. hahaha

pero masaya nga. na hindi. na masaya. na hindi. hahaha. am i confused? probably no one will understand this.. i miss my old xanga account. i deleted it. hahaha..

now i remember where i wrote after 2006-2007! :D