Journey: EXCELLENCE, a very weird thing to feel

In my duration of my part as a family member here in the ARTWORK family, we, as a company are always bombarded by different illustrations about EXCELLENCE. It was discussed that we should be excellent in our work, excellent in our studies, excellent in the little things that we do, and excellent in our passion. And my question was always like this, do I set high Excellency levels for my self for them to see it?

Well, as I go on with my my work in doing IDs for ARTWORK, I began to realize that I had implanted the excellent standards for the company in my brain for a long time that I have only been applying it for the company just only now!

Here's the thing. I was doing the ID's and it didn't turn our the way that we expected it to turn out because of the color that it printed out. It was not too BLACK for my standards and the way it was showed to us by the company a couple of months ago. And I began to look for the reasons why it did not turn out that well. digerati as I can be, I cannot find the reason why. After eighty ID's or so, I began to change the ribbon for the printer to print again, and I stumbled upon a certain switch in the computer and when I began to print again, the BLACK-colored ribbon functioned! I felt bad and I thought of changing it back into it's former state, but, I enjoyed seeing the "blackness" of the ID that was such pretty good for my eyes. So, after much sought thinking and a long face, I tried to consult my mom (da boss). And I told her everything, even my decision to turn it back or to redo ALL of the ID's (which was a stupid thing because of the price!) but, she only instructed me to do it in to the succeeding cards to follow. (whew! Someone saved my energy!)

My point? Well, when I finished talking to her, I was amazed at my decision to tell my mom about the "Fault" and me considering it that it was a fault! Well, to some of us, I couldn't be a fault because it just upgraded the quality, and the client (my mom) should be thankful for it! But, in my case, it was a failure.

As the day ended, it just so happened to surprise me that my decision and my perspective to that as a failure is considered as excellence(?)! And, until now, I still cant believe it! But, as the work for today ended, I am much happy that I got my excellence mind working and it is implanted, continuously into my heart as time passes by in my stay here in ARTWORK.


Alright Cathy. Kaycee told me that she didn't look like Heart Evangelista. She's prettier! (oh my....)

Good night, everyone.

Still, Time is Running Out...

As you can see, I am doing the project.... I'm sorry, I cant write an entry that can be that long today, I inhaled too much solvent in the room where I was staying doing all those projects and if you want to know my SAME situation, please read the entry: Project: "Time is running out!!" ID for ARTWORK Inc. 2005 Thank you for your kind consideration.

Project: "Time is running out!!" ID for ARTWORK Inc. 2005

NOTICE FROM THE WRITER: enough with the journey series. I'll continue that some other time. It's just that I need to finish my work with ARTWORK, a company that my parents work for. I need to make identification cards for their 300+ employees all over the Philippines. And I am very very tired. Thank you for you king consideration. I'll just tell you my story while I'm in this "time is running out" project.... Is that ok with you? Good.... Enjoy!

Well, here I am, tired, sloppy, and sleepy.... To the most, I'm not looking for the bed anymore, the bed is finding for me. That means, I can sleep even while on this chair infront of the computer. haha! Anyway, I had a very hectic day at the office. Need sleep.... Can't continue.... Can't write.... NAAAAH!!!!

Oh well, there I was sitting in a solvent-based room where a massive tarpaulin poster printer that runs on the addictive solvent-based ink is beside a computer with a puny card printer on side. It just shows that I am in this room that smelled like, and really smells like solvent to make those identification cards for the employees of the company. As I begin to inhale the addictive fumes, I began to work with their id's one by one. And I was light-headed when I finished twenty out of two hundred sixty-one id's to be submitted to the office before January 18, 2004. wow. Such a wonderful sight. That's why I entitled this project and a part of my journey: "Time is Running Out".

As you can see, I am a student and I am on break for the next few weeks until the 17th. I am pressured, and I am starting to go nuts.... hahaha! It's just that I cannot let go of this project because I am certain that my mom is expecting something to happen in my work there. And I m certain that she trusts me to do this. And I am certain that she trust me on this. And if I blow it up. kaput! That's it. Oh well, as I begin to do the work, I began to realize that a lot of people are expecting this to turn out right like the card holders or, the employees. If I make a mistake in just encoding their names or any info that I may miss, I'm history.... That's it, goodbye, work.

Yeah.... I think this can be a part of my journey. It teaches my mind to discipline my time and persevere in my work as an individual, and learn to have excellence planted within me.... Even in this, I learnt a lot! Wow! *laughs*. This job could be mind-boggling, but, with the help from my friends and even for HIM, I hope that I can finish this, on time....

Oh well, that's it. I must press on towards finishing this, and I need to finish it before time runs out....


I need to sleep.... I need to wake up early to catch more employees to shoot pictures at!! *cries* *laughs* *loses his mind*

Nightienight, Joyers.... Don't be a spoiler in "Lovers in Paris".

Journey: As i am dodging through the Clouds of Change

As I was talking to a close friend of mine, Kaycee, I was telling her what happened to me in Davao. And I just realized that, as I was going through the Journey of life, I was left out by the clouds of change. I realized that other people rose up through the changes and I just stopped in my journey and in my growth. Is just felt like I'm left out by time....

As I was evaluating my past with my friend, I thought of as the part of my journey as my walk into dodging through the clouds of change. As I continue to change myself, with the help of my friend, I am beginning to realize that by FAITH, you can dodge through the clouds of change. You see, i'm my ministry in the youth group in our church, I began to lose what I am handling that time.... Until better, newer people stood up to my placed and, I seemingly "passed on" my job to them....

But I realized that I cant go back to the work no more. I suddenly stopped in doing stuff for the ministry. And I just "froze" nobody knew what happened to me, I just visit, and do nothing.... That was my situation. And from now on, I begin my journey to dodge through the clouds of change. I begin to look, I began to search for another ministry within our youth group as another friend suggested. And I began to expand my horizons in search of another place where my heart can be filled, a place where I can find my passion, a place where I can work, a place where I belong. I don't have to be knowledgeable in order to work effectively, as my friend said, "a place where your heart is....". As I look and see what lies beyond, I believe that I can find another work, another ministry that not only that can suit me, but, a work that can bless and glorify HIM....

Dodging through the clouds of change doesn't only involve my life into serving HIM, but it is within me that needs change.... My life, attitude, character, etc. It made an impact to me as hard as HE is knocking into my heart to go back into HIM. As time progress, I hope I can rise up again, and look for the real JOSEPH.

Dodging through the clouds of change in my life is hard. I missed a lot of opportunities and I have no discipline in changing the things that are more important for me to change. As Kaycee would tell me, FAITH itself is important. It is like a foundation of a house that should be rooted deep within our hearts that in itself will take a very long time to build up. Or else, the house will topple down. As for me, I have these foundations strong within me, but I don't have the action to grow, and go within the changes that is happening to my life as a whole.



I miss those times when I can stand up and lead spiritually, right, Itel?

I miss you, Kuya Bong... I hope I can see you again soon.

Journey: A frustrated writer's wish.... Thank you, blog.

If life can always be a wish.... I wish I can become an excellent writer.... I hope I can write well.... As you can see, when I was younger, I aspired to become a great writer but, it was slowly fading away because of the changes in the way that I live, the way I act, and the way I live my life.... I begin to lose my discipline in writing....

I am now a full-pledged student, and a businessman.... There's virtually no way for me to practice writing and I begin to lose my style, my accuracy in grammatical construction, and other technical stuff in writing.... I hope I can have all that stuff back.... If there could be anyway that I could bring those things back I would grab that opportunity.

That made me a frustrated writer.... I even hated myself for that.... Now, even though how hard I tried, I cannot go on with writing.... *sigh* I can sometimes end up saying....

"I wish I may, I wish I might, I wish I could see a spark that can make me write!!!"

And I just end up cursing.... *&^%$!!!!!

As I started my blog, I saw it as a start for a new challenge in my writing.... *yay!* As I dodge through these challenges, I hope I could regain that strength and I may make my "wish" a wish come true! thank you, David for introducing me the world of BLOG....


It's raining, aren't they? nyahahaha!!!

THE WAY SHE WERE (Eulogy for Chip)

December 10, 2004.... It was a normal morning for me, until I received a YM message from my friend, Joy that was telling me that "Chip" suddenly came to ashes and burnt metal....

waaaah.....

Chip was the car of David, a friend of mine, that has been a part of our lives from the time I met him in our group, Citylights. We had ridden his car for a couple of times, and she served us for many times.... As you can see, chip was no ordinary car and we consider her as one of David's partners in his quest for redesigning himself.... She has been, (literally) into ups and downs, sidebanks and curves, and into terrible breakdowns. We even placed stickers in her body to make it look like a spaceship from outer space.... But she wouldn't mind.... She was always happy to serve....

Chip was there for us in our hardest times and brought us into different places here in Manila and has driven us in all sorts of places wide or narrow.... But sadly, Chip has to say goodbye and has to leave us because nothing is permanent here in earth and we have to abide by that change....

Yes, it was hard for us to say goodbye to chip but, his time has come, and she has to break down.... There were plans to restore chip, even I was planning to replace her engine with a porsche, but, it was too hard for us, chip wouldn't ever be the same with the way she purrs, the way she runs, and even the way she goes as a car. We have to wake up in the truth that we have to bid her goodbye and leave her to a better owner....

As time progress, we never saw David being the same again, maybe Chip was a catalyst for change in david's life. But in a different sense. I think he deserved someone better.... he just needs to wait and see.

As I end, let me sing this song by Basil Valdez as part of my grief to the loss of David and Chip going somewhere else better....

HINDI KITA MALILIMUTAN

Hindi kita malilimutan

Hindi kita pababayaan

Nakaukit magpakailanman

Sa 'king palad ang 'yong pangalan

Malilimutan ba ng ina

Ang anak na galing sa kanya

Sanggol sa kanyang sinapupunan

Paano niyang matatalikdan

Ngunit kahit na malimutan

Ng ina ang anak niyang tangan

Chorus:

Hindi kita malilimutan

Kailanma'y di pababayaan

Hindi kita malilimutan

Kailanma'y di pababayaan

Hindi kita malilimutan

Kailanma'y di pababayaan

Malilimutan ba ng ina

Ang anak na galing sa kanya

Sanggol sa kanyang sinapupunan

Paano niyang matatalikdan

Ngunit kahit na malimutan

Ng ina ang anak niyang tangan

Chorus:

Hindi kita malilimutan

Kailanma'y di pababayaan

Hindi kita malilimutan

Kailanma'y di pababayaan

Hindi kita malilimutan

Kailanma'y di pababayaan

Hindi kita malilimutan

Kailanma'y di pababayaan

Hindi kita malilimutan

Kailanma'y di pababayaan

Hindi kita malilimutan

Kailanma'y di...

Kailanma'y di...Pababayaan

We will surely miss you chip.... We know that you deserved your rest and you've found a better owner. We wont forget you.... Your memories will always stay in our hearts.... Forever.... I also pay respect for chip....

Welcome Address from the Writer

Yes, the first entry... I WAS a writer before, but with that, I'm coping up with my lack of practice within the span of.... 2 years? Yes, two write less years. Inasmuch as I want to, the pressures of everyday life forces me to retreat from writing... Sad as it may seem, but it want to re-train myself in put myself into the right track as a writer... Again.... I hope.... *laughs* let me see.... Let me welcome you to my little spot in the net and I would like to thank you for reading. I hope as time passes by, you may begin to see my inner journey in search for the real Joseph.... Enjoy!

night times are dark, you know?

The Dreamer

But still, LIFE MUST GO ON.... (new year's message)

Last night, I received a SMS from one of my friends that reads:

don't greet anyone "happy three kings" on Sunday anymore...

it should be.... HAPPY TWO KINGS.

because, "DA KING" died.... gud am

For the non-Filipinos, "DA KING" is referred to as one of the pillars of the Philippine movie industry namely, Fernando Poe Jr....

Funny as it may sound, but life must go on.

In the past year, I had experienced a lot of tragedies in my life as well as the tragedies in our country and in the world and it appeared that the world itself is tumbling down. "It is not a good sign" as I may say.

There were tragedies in my life like, my favorite godmother died a couple of months ago, or even, my school has these problems and we, as the students of the school have to also face the problem as they say: "as one family" *sigh* there were a lot of other tragedies I faced as a person and as a human being.... Especially, in my spiritual life.

Or even, in the world around us, we are faced by challenges like, the disasters that other Asian countries faced this past week.... The tsunamis that hit different countries in Asia. It was The reason why I didn't go wakeboarding last week! Dang! But still, I enjoyed my vacation. But, I was moved by the impact it made to fellow Asians like us here in the world. Tradgedies in our country happened, here, there were relatives of prominent people and pillars in different art and political sectors who died or suffered gravely in the past months....

But still, it affected me as a Filipino. but, still, life must go on.

As I am alone here in hotel room here in Davao, I'm began to realize that it was not only in my own might that I endured in my own battle and the things that surrounds me like, my friends, news, etc. There was a "force" that pushes me to go and step forward in the walk in life... It was HIM.... In as much as I want to give up, HE keeps on pushing me to push further.... Here, in the quest to find my inner self, these things were evident that HE is with me all the way through.... Always. In the quest for my journey, I pray that I may not give up, and continue to go through in that quest.... For those people that knows me.... I will entitle myr Journey as: Looking4Manong. I hope that you guys stay with me as my journey progress and you stay with me whenever, whatever, whoever might happen.... Thank you! Let me welcome you to my little spot in the net and I would like to thank you for reading. I hope as time pass by, you may begin to see my inner journey in search for the real Joseph.... Enjoy!

Looking for the inner self that was lost for ages...
Lost in the waves of change...
Lost in the times...
Still, taking hold of promises,
Yet, undisciplined nature eats them away...


Looking4Manong

A prosperous new year to all.